Journey of Transformation;the reality of what is holding us back…

Well it has been a couple of weeks since I wrote to you, however I have just returned from an incredible trip to China & Mongolia which  will be telling you all about soon.

Now I need to tell you about my time in London with Russell and undergoing the Grief Recovery process.  What was very interesting about the process was that we had to list down our losses that we had in our lives, going back to the first event in our lives that we remembered, the official term was the Dawn of Conscious Memory, I went back to being 4 or 5 years of age, sitting in the kitchen at the hospital where my Mother was working helping to pod peas!!!  It was fascinating to see how things that I had forgotten about came to mind.  It was a time of true reflection.

What we tend to do is to suppress our emotions and memories and not deal with the impact that the losses has on us.  The analogy that is used is that we are a kettle on a hot flame and in the spout we have a stopper, so all this pain that we hold on to over the years has not where to go, and it just keeps swirling around in the same place, bubbling away and having no escape, so we hold on to our pain and in the end the pain can and often does become physical pain.  For me my emotional pain became breast cancer, others have strokes, back pain or any other illnesses.

So think about carrying all this "baggage" throughout your life, and what this has done to hold us back from living the life  of our dreams…I just didn't realise how the losses that I had in my life had affected the results that I was and have been experiencing.

Did not realise that losses created so much pain that resulted in deep rooted emotions that dictated the results we have in our current lives.